biggest splinter ever.

Every so often I feel compelled to journal something. Not that this is a very efficient-or private-method of doing so, but I will wrap myself in the warm blank of anonimity [at least for the moment]. I've been offered a new job in a different, larger town that will have more people my age. After consulting some of my older and wiser mentors, I think that it would be a good place to setup shop and do some good things. I plan to call my would-be boss tomorrow and talk some things over with him to make sure we want to go in the same direction; if that goes well, i'll accept the position. I had really hoped to live with my college buddy in one of the nearby cities but I think that this is where I'm supposed to be. It's a sacrifice I think I'm supposed to make, not that it is any easier.
I've felt drawn back to God recently, he's been putting things in my life that demand I give Him more time, prayer, and love than i've been giving Him during the last year. I met with a Godly man recently and we talked over life and our relationships with God. I came to realize during that conversation that I've been a real faker lately, a lot like those white-washed tombs Jesus spoke of. I really need to take the log out of my eye and look to glorifiying God and putting Jesus back in the central position of Lord in my life that he deserves. Frankly I am not surprised that God put me out of reach of significant girl relationships; I'm just not ready for one...way to selfish.